too funny

new perspective

i've always thought myself to be compassionate, empathetic & kind.

and then i had james.

now, songs that i have always heard suddenly make me cry. stories make me angrier. politicians drive me insane. people drive me insane with the cruelty we impart on each other.

i can't do much about much these days, but i am glad that i do something. 'cause i want my baby boy to grow up in a better world than he was born into. i want my future children to know peace, not war. i want my grandchildren to have a safe community and planet to live in and be happy. i want to spend my days working for these things for my child, and because i've learned so much about love from HIM, i want these things for all children. (and not just the ones under 18). i want there to be safe communities EVERYWHERE. I want everyone to be able to go to the doctor when they just have a cough - just to make their nervous parents feel better. I want every child to fall asleep safe in his crib, sucking his thumb in pure joy, knowing that his parents are watching over him & keeping him safe. i want every child to wake up in his crib, flapping his arms in delight to see his parents, SO excited to see them again, just ready for another day of learning & living. these are the things i've gotten to experience with james, and i want them for other parents and their children.

they're lofty goals, and i may never reach them. but i'm sure as hell gonna try.

songs i don't normally listen to

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin' in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

So close to perfect

It's my favorite time. It's getting close to Christmas, so the Amy Grant CD is perpetually in the CD player. We put up our tree last night, and bought some more home decor today. James' face lights up every time he walks (is carried) into the living room. He LOVES lights & shiny things, so he thinks it's great fun that we have a tree in our house now. There are pretty candles burning on our mantle, and the lights are all off, so the room is really dim. James is upstairs sleeping, and Max fell asleep on the sofa. The pets are all put away, so the house is completely quiet. Every once in a while, Max snores. Or james will stir in his sleep (he rotates as he's sleeping - lately, as he's gotten taller, he's getting stuck & will require some assistance to keep rotating around the crib).

It's about as close to perfect as it could get.

... let's just hope the candles on the mantle don't catch the garland on fire.