All churches should be multi-racial

Max & I found a great article in Christianity Today - He's got the full text on his blog. Worth the time to read & talk about!

http://www.journeyofthemagi.blogspot.com/

My sister

My sister Holly, the one who has been with me through so much of my journeys that have taken me away from my family, the very one who I can call & talk with about anything - and I mean - ANYTHING... has betrayed me.

She's having a baby.

It was bad enough when she got married. No longer was I her lone confidant. No longer was I the chief one who could make her laugh.

But, I grew to love Matt as well, and now we ALL have a blast together.

But, her desire for a family outgrew her desire to be entertained by me via phone, so... in the way things like that usually happen... she's pregnant.

And Baby Girl Geisler (affectionally referred to in-utero as "Gia," "Isabelle," or "Cassa - Dee") will make her appearance sometime this fall.

And now, she's joined the elite group of motherhood - complaining of backaches, tiredness, and random (constant) hunger. No longer do we chat about nonsense - all of our conversations have taken on specific topics, in between feedings (of Holly, not the baby, yet!) We talk about decorating the nursery, shopping for maternity clothes, baby showers, naming of said children, and college funds.

But, I believe, in my heart-of-hearts, that my sister is still in there somewhere. Because, just the other day, I made her laugh while we were talking on the phone. And the topic of the moment wasn't a baby.

And the heart sinks...

Yesterday, something happened to me that I never thought would happen. Not to me, anyways. (Why I thought I was excluded from this phenomenon, I don't know. But, nonetheless, I gave myself an exemption.)

My computer crashed.

Finally, after getting internet set up in my new office, I returned to that office after a month hiatus of working on another computer. I'm fussing away to my heart's content, eager for an afternoon of chatting on YAHOO IM with my niece. I notice, annoyed, that I have more pop-ups on my computer than I did last I used it, so I set about the task of removing random programs that have been installed thanks to the self-installing virus that is so popular.

I delete said program, and my desktop shows up with 1/2 of the icons missing. I restart the computer, as I ususally do when icons are missing.

However, when it restarted, the now-evil-in-my-eye computer said "welcome, first time user."

and now, many, MANY panicked moments later, it does not even recognize my keyboard so therefore won't get past the set up BIOS screen.

The computer guy's coming out this afternoon to pick it up.

Don't you know I was going to back things up last night, b/c it was starting to act funky?

UGH.

So, now, we're waiting for the rescue guy - i mean, computer repair guy - to come over. And then we wait to order a new computer.

But first, the oh-so-anxious waiting to see if my hard drive got fried in the process. 'cause if it did, the 6 month research data entry project that i did last fall... oh the horror.

Just a few corrections

Tonight, my heart is breaking.

The Bennett Center, the ministry where I was the assistant director for 14 months, is going through hell. The exec. director who took over 8 months after I started, (which is also 6 months before he figured out a way to get rid of me) has ruined one of the best ministries I've ever seen. He's decided to close The New Life Center (youth ministry) and the theater programs - two of 5 ministries - the only two, by the way, that actually BROUGHT IN money. And when they are severely in debt, you'd think that they'd want to bring in money. Not to mention, they are the most visible programs in to the public's eye.

I've been keeping up with the drama through my friends that still work there (who, coincidentally, are the very ones losing their jobs due to these program cuts. Sound fishy to any one else?) and every week brings another heartache.

Tonight, I found out that the husband of the future interim exec. director (father of teen who attends the NLC programs) verbally assaulted the director of the NLC and one of the volunteers, in the presence of 5 teens. He insulted the very people I respect the most, and made them cry. I HATE WHEN GROWN MEN MAKE YOUNG WOMEN CRY.

And I talk with Brady (director of youth programs) about how we hate what this ministry has turned into, and how we wish we could put the final nail in the coffin just to put it out of it's misery and let it be done. That maybe, after all, that would be more graceful than trying to rebuild something out of ashes.

but yet... although we despise what is happening, and have both been hurt terribly by some of the people in the administration, and by people on the board, we find ourselves reluctant to hammer the final nail in place. Because, after all, it is this same ministry that called me to stay in Kentucky after making the decision to leave. It is this same ministry that motivated Brady to move from Montana.

And, most of all, it's the ministry where Alice works.

Alice is the dearest soul in the world. She is my grandmother that I met when I was 24 - the 75 year old woman who, after leaving her husband, met Bob Wood (late founder of TBC) and was inspired by his vision of a ministry that "provided opportunities for wholeness to all persons." Alice moved to Kentucky from Indiana to live in an old college apartment, to work in the pottery studio and new life center to help tutor 4th graders at risk of dropping out of school. Alice climbed the rock climbing wall on her 75th birthday, to the cheers of all present. Alice learned pottery so that she could teach it to children who needed help expressing themselves. Alice cried the day I was fired. Alice cried on Monday when we talked, for she was so upset about what was happening to the other 6 young volunteers who are losing their home and jobs on June 1. Alice, who stays - because she feels called to be a part of saving The Bennett Center.

And, though it would be nice to put the final nail in the coffin and let all those who hurt me get "what they deserve" - - - - what would happen to Alice? Can I, or Brady, be a part of doing something that will hinder Alice's call to ministry?

And so my heart breaks, because it's just going to get worse before it gets better, and I don't even fully believe that it will get better. And so I cry for Alice, because I DON'T know what will happen to her. And I cry out of pride for Brady, Tim, Hilari, Ben, Sarah & Christina, for fighting for & standing up for themselves & the ministries they have built there.

And I cry, because I hired all of those people, inviting them to be a part of the ministry I was a part of, because I believed in them, and I believed in their call to a progressive, life-changing ministry that did more than preach at people... It was a ministry where Jesus was real to all people in all ways - when we fixed homes, when we played DDR, when we produced plays - we showed everyone who came on our campus that God cares about EVERY aspect of their lives, and that we wanted to be a part of that love. I cry because that ministry is gone. I cry because I no longer get to be a part of their lives. I cry because I don't get to visit Alice in the craft store when I'm bored at work, sure to sneak a piece of chocolate or even possibly a hug.

And so, in honor of Mary Lou, Alice, Brady, Tim, Hilary, Ben, Sarah, Christina and all the others working there, I salute you. I send you hope when it's hopeless. I wish, as Sarah & Hilari asked me on Monday, that I could rescue you. I wish I could take you all with me. I wish you strength for the days ahead. I wish you God's grace to deal with the ugliness that is sure to come in the days ahead, and I wish you Godspeed as you journey on - beyond our time together, and beyond what could have been. I look forward to meeting you again someday and hearing what exciting things you have done. I look forward to hearing how you have again found a way to be God's hands in a hurting world. I thank you for the privilege of working along side of you for a short time, and for being a part of the journey since then.

Here is a link to the front page of the local London paper. The link to the article isn't working currently, but it's www.sentinel-echo.com if anyone wants to attempt reading the actual articles.

http://www.sentinel-echo.com/content/current/front/front.pdf

Sad pet week

This week, a friend had to put her old (15 year old) dog down.

Max & I found out that Cordy has arthritis and heart disease.

Buddy the cat has Irritable Bowel Syndrome and has to be on steroids for a short time and low-allergen food indefinitely.

Another friend's dog got an infected flea bite.

What a sad week for pets.

On this note - if anyone out there in "becky's blog world" wants a black lab mix dog (2 years old) - we've got three that need a good home.

leave a comment if you're interested, or if you know of a good home for our beloved Harry, Sally & Molly.

sunshine, yet blue.

Damned-ist thing.

it's beautiful outside. The sky is blue, the sun is warm on my face, and i'm 5 minutes from the beach. i have a stress-free job, I am fairly financially stable, my car is working moderately well after a few repairs, i bought cute clothes recently that fit, my hair has finally recovered from a disastrous haircut 2 years ago, and my face finally figured out how to maintain a semi-balance that remains free of major blemishes.

so why do i feel so blue?

i come home & sit on the couch for hours. I have little to no motivation to do much of anything. Sitting & staring seems like fun.

I'm having a rather difficult time dealing with things in my life. Nothing major, just things.

if you think happy thoughts, please think a few for me, please.

Thoughts by Groups RE: Budget

For Immediate Release
April 29, 2005

Groups Concerned by Congressional Budget that Takes
from the Poor and Gives to the Rich

Leading Advocates Express Disappointment over Final Budget that Includes Large Cuts
to Medicaid, Food Stamps, Children’s Health Care

(WASHINGTON, D.C.) National leading advocacy groups for children, families, labor, and the environment today joined together to voice their strong opposition to the $2.6 trillion budget passed Thursday night.The bill includes significant cuts to everything from Medicaid and food stamps to education and job training, as well as paving the way to opening the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge to drilling. At the same time, the bill would provide over $100 billion in tax breaks, largely to upper-income Americans. The Senate voted 52-47 to approve the budget resolution,
while the House passed the bill by a vote of 214-211.

Individual group reactions follow:

AFL-CIO:
“Cuts of this magnitude will devastate the states, which recently endured their worst
fiscal crises since World War II and are struggling already to meet explosive Medicaid cost growth, fueled by swelling ranks of the uninsured and the federal government’s shifting of costs for acute and long-term care for the elderly and disabled. Enacting the Medicaid cuts contemplated by the budget resolution will seriously undermine states’ ability to provide basic health coverage for the nation’s most vulnerable individuals and families.”
- John Sweeney, President
202-637-5000, www.aflcio.org
The AFL-CIO's mission is to bring social and economic justice to the nation by enabling working people to have a voice on the job, in government, in a changing global economy, and in their communities.

BREAD FOR THE WORLD:
“Overall, the budget misses the mark. It does not balance our nation’s need for security with our moral commitment to help hardworking people who are struggling to feed their families and build a better life. The budget is more than a recitation of numbers and acronyms, programs and plans. Fundamentally, it is a moral document that reflects our country’s values and shapes our future.”
- Rev. David Beckmann, President
202-639-9400, www.bread.org
Bread for the World is a nonpartisan citizens' movement of 54,000 people of faith,
including 2,500 churches, which addresses hunger in our communities and around the
world.

CALL TO RENEWAL:
“Our political leadership’s tax cut mentality ignores “the least of these” – leaving them with crumbs from the feast of the comfortable. And it does nothing to help our deficit problems. Religious communities spoke clearly in the past years about the perils of a domestic policy based primarily on tax cuts for the rich, program cuts for low-income people, and an expectation of faith-based charity. We speak clearly now against budget proposals asking that the cost of the deficit be borne by the poor, who are not to blame and can least afford it.”
- Rev. Jim Wallis, Convener
202-328-8745, www.calltorenewal.org
Call to Renewal is a national network of churches, faith-based organizations, and
individuals working to overcome poverty in America.

CATHOLIC CHARITIES USA:
“We are disappointed that apparently the budget will require substantial cuts in health care for the poor and elderly, a devastating decision at a time when millions have lost their health insurance and have no way to pay for medical care.”
- Rev. Larry Snyder, President
703-549-1390, www.catholiccharitiesusa.org
Catholic Charities USA is the membership association of one of the nation's largest
social service networks, providing vital social services to people in need.

CENTER ON BUDGET AND POLICY PRIORITIES
“The new budget cuts domestic programs in the name of deficit reduction. But it includes more tax cuts heavily oriented toward those with the highest incomes, as well as further increases in defense spending. As a result, deficits would increase by more than $150 billion over the next five years, compared with the deficits the Congressional Budget Office says will occur if there are no changes in current policies. This budget digs the deficit hole deeper and passes more debt on to future generations, while using budget cuts aimed at the poor and vulnerable to help finance tax breaks for the well-off and the well-connected. Sad to say, the country would be better off with no budget plan than with this one. Without it, deficits would be lower, and cuts in programs for the needy wouldn't be imposed to pay for more tax cuts for the wealthiest.”
- Robert Greenstein, Executive Director
202-408-1080, www.cbpp.org
The Center on Budget and Policy Priorities is one of the nation’s premier policy
organizations working at the federal and state levels on fiscal policy and public
programs that affect low- and moderate-income families and individuals.
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CHILDREN’S DEFENSE FUND:
“The budget reflects our moral values as a people. If we don’t take care of each other in our federal budget and justly share public goods, then services for “the least of us” will be ripped away, the care of our most vulnerable citizens will fall to the states resulting either in tax increases or further cuts in services, and children will suffer and have to bear the brunt of budget sacrifice they did not cause. Such unjust choices end up on the doorsteps of your constituents, causing great pain in neighborhoods because of misguided tax and budget choices that say the wealthy are more entitled to federal help than the middle class, the poor, and children who, to our shame, are the poorest age group in the richest nation on earth.”
- Marian Wright Edelman, President
202-628-8787, www.childrensdefense.org
CDF provides a strong, effective voice for all the children of America who cannot vote, lobby, or speak for themselves, paying particular attention to the needs of poor and minority children and those with disabilities.


COALITION ON HUMAN NEEDS:
“The House and Senate negotiators have built a budget out of a house of cards. The
economy is slowing and states are struggling to finance vital public services. This budget will come toppling down on the heads of our most vulnerable citizens through cuts to health care, education, food, and rebuilding communities – just when help is needed the most.”
- Deborah Weinstein, Executive Director
202-223-2532, DWeinstein@chn.org, www.chn.org
The Coalition on Human Needs is an alliance of national organizations working together to promote public policies that address the needs of low-income and other vulnerable populations.

CONNECT FOR KIDS:
“The severe cuts included in the budget will burden our nation’s children by cutting vital services and increasing the debt they will inherit, while protecting the interests of the wealthy with more tax cuts. Despite overwhelming votes in the House and Senate to protect Medicaid from cutbacks, the behind-the-scenes deal making has resulted in kids being cut out of the deal.”
- Jan Richter, Advocacy Director
540-948-4332, jan@connectforkids.org, www.connectforkids.org
Connect for Kids provides parents, educators, advocates, policymakers, elected officials and others with the tools and information they need to improve the lives of children, youth and families.

DEFENDERS OF WILDLIFE:
"After decades of protecting the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge, lawmakers now stand
at the brink: yesterday’s budget vote is likely to pave the way to drilling in the
Refuge through reconciliation instructions to committee chairmen who are eager to open
the Refuge through this loophole. I urge the strong bipartisan coalition of Members who
have stood by the Refuge during tough votes in the past to stand strong and reject any
actions that threaten this extraordinary American wilderness."
- Rodger Schlickeisen, President
202-682-9400, www.defenders.org
Defenders of Wildlife is dedicated to the protection of all native wild animals and plants
in their natural communities.

DOCS FOR TOTS:
“One out of four American children depends on Medicaid for their health care. Both the
House and Sena te voted to remove ALL Medicaid cuts from the federal budget
resolution. The budget that has now come out of House and Senate negotiations violates
the will of Congress by reinserting $10 million in Medicaid cuts. Congress must stand up
and say NO. This is a budget that hurts children who need health care to thrive and do
well, in school and in life.”
- George L. Askew, MD, Founder and Executive Director
202-898-9042, www.docsfortots.org
Docs For Tots is a nationwide network of children’s doctors advocating for policies and
practices that serve the best interests of children from birth to five.

THE EVANGELICAL LUTHERAN CHURCH IN AMERICA:
"For the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, justice is not just rhetoric, but a call to
fulfill our baptismal covenant and to ACT to bring about justice for the ‘least among us.’
We believe the priorities of the federal budget resolution stand in contradiction to
Biblical tradition. Its provisions will be truly devastating for people living in poverty in
this country and around the world."
- The Reverend Mark S. Hanson, Presiding Bishop
773-380-2700, www.elca.org
The Evangelical Lutheran Church in America's works toward social justice on domestic
and foreign policy issues facing the nation, and through it, the world.

FAMILIES USA:
"On March 17 the Senate voted that Medicaid budget changes should not be arbitrarily
decided but, rather, should only occur after a bipartisan commission has the opportunity
to determine the program's future directions. The House adopted a similar resolution on
April 26. This agreement, however, places the cart before the horse by arbitrarily
agreeing to large Medicaid cutbacks, even though a commission has not yet been
appointed.

It is disgraceful that Congress adopted a federal budget that cuts $70 billion in estate and
capital gains taxes for the richest people while, at the same time, it slashes funding for
seniors and children who count on Medicaid for their very survival."
- Ron Pollack, Executive Director
202-628-3030, www.familiesusa.org
Families USA is a national nonprofit, non-partisan organization dedicated to the
achievement of high-quality, affordable health care for all Americans.

FOOD RESEARCH AND ACTION CENTER:
“The Food Research and Action Center is deeply disappointed that Congress passed
a budget resolution that in all likelihood will cut food stamps for needy families with
children and increase hunger in this country, at the same time that it reduces taxes for the
very affluent and increases the deficit. Feeding hungry American children didn’t cause
the deficit and cutting back on the help they get will not solve it.”
- Jim Weill, President
www.frac.org, 202- 986-2200
The Food Research and Action Center (FRAC) is a leading national organization
working to improve public policies to eradicate hunger and undernutrition in the United
States.

NATIONAL COUNCIL OF LA RAZA:
“For Hispanic Americans, this budget comes at a critical time when more rather than less
investment is needed. In spite of what some may say, lawmakers have options. A vote
for a budget that cuts programs for education, health, and housing programs that serve
needy families is a choice and preference, not a necessity. There are other ways to
balance the budget and Congress must look in another direction.”
- Eric Rodriguez, Director, Policy Analysis Center
202-785-1670, www.nclr.org
The National Council of La Raza is a private, nonprofit, nonpartisan, tax-exempt
organization established to reduce poverty and discrimination and improve life
opportunities for Hispanic Americans.

VOICES FOR AMERICA’S CHILDREN:
“We applaud members of Congress who made America’s children a priority and fought
off even deeper cuts to Medicaid and other low-income programs. Unfortunately even
with those changes this budget will still result in a devastating loss of services for
millions of America’s children. More kids will go to bed hungry, fewer will be able to see
a doctor when they’re sick, and more kids will be unprepared to excel at school and life.
Congress needs to do better to serve our youngest citizens.”
Debbie Stein, Director of Federal Policy and Advocacy
202-289-0777, stein@voices.org, www.voicesforamericaschildren.org
Voices for America’s Children is a national child-advocacy organization that speaks up
for children on Capitol Hill and in 44 states, with a network of 57 member organizations.

THE WILDERNESS SOCIETY:
“Most Americans want to keep the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge just the way it is:
wild, unspoiled, and free of oil drilling. Members of Congress should remember that the
budget resolution doesn’t have to include the words ‘Arctic Refuge’ to pave the way for
drilling. A vote for the budget resolution with open-ended reconciliation instructions to
the House Resources and Senate Energy Committees is no different from a vote to drill in
the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge, plain and simple.”
- Bill Meadows, President
202-833-2300, www.wilderness.org
The mission of The Wilderness Society is to deliver to future generations an unspoiled
legacy of wild places, with all the precious values they hold: Biological diversity; clean
air and water; towering forests, rushing rivers, and sage-sweet, silent deserts.
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